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chetan nirup(sunil ranjan): beloved
Email: sunil_ranjan@hotmail.com
Date: Nov 5, 2001, 8:32
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Nishkam: Sorry
Email: nishkam@sannyas-on.net
Date: Nov 5, 2001, 9:43
Sorry for this technical problem with Nirup's message. It seems it was not written. I hope space for sharing is OK now.

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amano:
Date: Nov 5, 2001, 17:31
Pune is really beautiful place
And I feel immensssssely drawn there
But I have a large rottweiler who can't come in the commune,and he comes again with me to Pune/elswhere in India also in Febuary,but by which time it will be almost too hot for him so we will sod off up north where its cooler and cleaner for Mulla.I would love to be in The pune ashram doing all the delicious groups etc yet it seems that certain members of Ashram security always seem to be crawling up my ass for whatever reason.So I am being a coward and avoiding them because otherwise there:ll eventually be a big punch up.I'm all for meditation but I feel alot of the people in inner circle are racist white people like with thier nose in the air.And one of the reasons I go to India is to tune in to that thousand years old enlightenement vibe ever throbbing and present in india,and the stuck up white people ruin it but that's just my projections.I get fed up with white people asking me "so how did you get into sanyass" as if it's the exclusive reserve of rich whites,europeans only plus lesser Indians.
So I stick two resolute fingers at this dead crowd hang out with some beautful musicians and real masters who aren't running around the marble clad floors charging the earth for a bunch of new age dollars grabbing crap.
Don't get your mind wrong here osho's meditation techniques are perfect but all those made up "self help" groups give yourselves a break.Either you have a soul or you don't and money can't buy the priceless commodity.
I really must stand up for truth here and proclaim osho beautiful but the whole ugly business around him should rot in ther sewers of pune but hey isn't it all beautiful anyway....
So I'll stick to my dick
and stay out the thick
of it


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Samveda: Czech Sannyasins
Email: samborrett@ozemail.com.au
Date: Nov 6, 2001, 0:18
Chech sannyasins, because they are so fresh and innocent have a very big advantage over others if they are sincere and interested enough in meditation.
If they have this interest and thirst, which I feel they do , they need to nourish it as often as they can. In the beginning I feel it can be helpful to be around other meditators who have some experience of Osho's meditations and also others who are starting.
In this way they can be encouraged to keep going because usually the pressure to make money is so much that meditation gets left far behind. When you mix from time to time with others who are searching, it is a kind of support and as humans we seems to need support of some kind or other. And in this context I feel Shangri La is the perfect place as the flavour of meditation is very much here and is very supportive and helpful for the individual.
I feel that Czech sannyasins should continue enjoying, having fun, meditating and should not take any notice of anyone who puts himself or herself out there as a Guru. Everyone is in the same boat ( more or less) and to put someone else up there as a guru is very damaging for the human spirit as far as I'm concerned.
Also to go to Poona, if this is possible as Poona is still very much a great place to visit and can give you a lot if you are open for it.

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    amano: RE:Czech Sannyasins
    Date: Nov 8, 2001, 22:39
    everything is beautiful and whoever puts themself up as a guru is needed for those who need the illusion.Existence is not just this this two edged sword that all the winsome poets have told you about.....
    And in fact and although existence can be likened to nothing according to me I most closely give the example of the perfect diamond with it's one and the many facets..... but try to understand that the bliss of aloneness and the bliss of sharing and the pain are all needed none can exist without the other...and none can not coexist without the other they are all there for your growth or nothing at all depoending on where your obviously at and this is not a candy shop for conciousness here ......wow your message so beautiful penetrates the heart .I get so caught up in the "white people them and us trip" and all their projections and mine about them and after all projections are just projections
    And no-one can know the pain of living in different skin but I have a sanyassin friend of mine who is very upper class public school white english and spends his time drinking gin into oblivion{not true sorry tindall!! urrgggh !!} and he has a very slight facial blemish and this is such a trip for him thinking that all the women find him not beautiful which is such utter garbage and should be kept there.And he says that all the white women find me so beautiful with my "black skin and great big penis/dick" which is such absolute crap and so way off the erudite mark in fact.And as if size makes a goddam difference (BIN LADEN- 5 PENTAGON -0] hurgh hurgh hurgh. So all of us have indeed our pain and trauma that happened and happens or is happening
    and love is just love
    and all is on t he path to love and bask in it and sing and play that instrument or paint that picture or sculpt or whatever
    so i'll keep playing my music
    rockin on
    I'll be in Pune in feb very briefly but more likely way up north cooler and cleaner for my
    dog like I said then it's back too sexually pent up europe where all the dutch girls want to shag me but won't because they want to but thier mothers says no,no seriously just joking not seriously
    but I'm enjoying the absolute joke of me
    and the beauty that you share
    humoungus hugs to you samveda


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    prasanna: RE:RE:RE:Czech Sannyasins
    Date: Nov 11, 2001, 18:40
    its so sad how osho's name is being abused here I'll complain to dyanesh.Oh I haven't had an orgasm in years any offers??

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    Sw Veet Dunga: RE:RE:RE:RE:RE: Czech Sannyasins
    Date: Nov 11, 2001, 18:47
    This is discrace yu ussing dis sight as a no go no hoper enfield this is not in osho's name .And dis iz against indian tradition why yu can't wait until marriage before you love your wife.And neve mind dat my balls are big as footballs from ongoing sexual repression please stick to cultrure

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    martin karnas: RE:Czech Sannyasins
    Email: martin_kar26@yahoo.com
    Date: Apr 5, 2007, 10:57
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Katha: meditation=the freedom of .........
Email: anuragkatha@yahoo.com
Date: Nov 15, 2001, 15:12
Hi Samveda,
Nice to " see "you here again.Where are you now?Let's chat a little more prive?
and yes ,for me Meditation is the only time to be all-one.
A big Hallo and Sawadee from Osho Paramdham in Thailand ,Koh Samui.
P.S. if you like to sit with an enlightent person,we can meet at our Meditationhall here on Samui at 6 pm(daily Meditation).
Still loving you ,so come to see us Osho's here.Our web.:www.axolotlvillage.c om/meditationcenter
Love Katha.

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    Katha: daily Kundalini in Thailand
    Email: anuragkatha@gmail.com
    Date: Mar 29, 2007, 11:57
    visit us at Osho Paramdham on Samui/Ban Tai

    www.paramdhamcente r.com

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      Katha: Shocking Story No.2
      WWW: www.paramdhamcenter.com
      Email: anuragkatha@gmail.com
      Date: Apr 8, 2007, 4:30
      Beloved friends and fellow travelers,
      the rumor is going around ,(because of a letter I was writing here to a friend ) that I am enlightent and invite people here for Satsang.I am not! And have no Intentions to be.
      So,please stop sending me e-mails or add me on your website.

      I don"t have time for Enlightenment!
      I am to busy for giving Sessions or Lessons in any way.

      If you are really interested in Enlightenment:DO It YOURSELF!
      Go inside,meditate,find a group and join.Easy!

      I suggest you to join Meditations at Osho Paramdham here in Thailand or go India,Pune Osho Resort.

      Again, nobody gave and gives Satsang here.
      (Osho: "Enlightenment,Satsa ng,all dirty words....)
      We are all Lovers here of our Master OSHO.

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Kutira: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
Date: Nov 18, 2005, 4:37
Hello Sw Chetan Samveda
I read through your article because I too have an enlightened master and it is for the love of this master that I read patiently through your article. It is such a rare thing to speak to someone who knows what it really is to have a master and so I am messaging you.

I am in deep love with my master, a love of this world and beyond,one that transcends time and space and that is very shocking thing to say. It is a very dangerous thing for me to say this because whenever I proclaim my love for my master publicly he being omniscient knows and whenever this happens he knows that he is secure enough and that I am secure enough in his love to take the earth away from me again. Maybe because you are not an enlightened master yourself you might not understand my particular experience. But because Osho is your master I thought you might understand.
As I said it is difficult to talk to people about such things
Hoping there is a trampoline to soften my fall
Kutira


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    Kutira: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
    Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
    Date: May 18, 2006, 2:18
    And sometimes does it feel like your master is 1000 mousetraps that surround you and there is just no escaping him/her. And sometimes do you just breathe in your master and nothing else. This love is madness. This love drives me and drives me crazy. Is that what it feels like to you Sammi

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    : RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
    Date: Mar 14, 2007, 3:10
    So hows it hanging honey. Are all your d's as entertaining as me
    I bet you would love to answer back. Shame you cant it must just about kill your augmentations See, mixing with a better class of people gives me a better vocab. Well, may your silences be humorous and your talk fests brief. Good luck to your wife and may your christmases be many.

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    : RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
    Date: Mar 27, 2007, 6:40
    Hello sammi I'm still not talking to you but anyway. If loving and being loved are one in the same thing and the heart is an explosion of joy for the beloved and if the positive polarity for the man is fired by the positive polarity of the woman then what do you feel like I wonder? is the body headless I wonder? And if the positive polarity of the woman is fired by the positive polarity of the man then I wonder what I feel like. Mmmm

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    : RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
    Date: Jul 16, 2007, 10:06
    Still lonely sammi!?. If I could see you then I would stop writing to you that would be good for you just think no irritating messages. No constant questions. You could sit down talk to me for a while and I could chatter to you and you would put an end to this. Peace just think what that would be like peace perfect peace. Oh wouldnt you love to be free of me of the little squeaky voice that sounds like it needs oiling. We could talk until I had had enough of talking and then I would be free and you would be free. That sounds good doesnt it. I dont talk about challenges in every day life and things like that I only talk about ordinary things that would be fun dont you think and you could just pretend to listen and that would be enough for me. I think I would like to have fun now. Would you like to have fun now sammi? You could talk to me too and I promise I would pretend to listen most of the time anyway because you do talk a lot once you get going and I tend to lose track a bit of what you are actually talking about but I promise I would definitely do my best. So what do you say. I cant really hear you at the moment but if you come a bit closer Im sure I will. Loving you as always sammi
    kutira

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fairy bliss: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: birthday4u@yahoo.com.au
Date: Dec 19, 2005, 2:17
The birthday fairy checked her list
She didnt want to miss
this chance to send
her fairy kiss

On this special day
she sends to you
you birthday wish

Happy Birthday Sammi
Love always
Fairy Bliss

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Kutira: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
Date: Apr 19, 2006, 6:16
And does your master breathe fire too

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
Date: May 23, 2006, 2:41
Like what Sammi?

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
Date: May 30, 2006, 0:37
Let me tell you about my master. If you look you won't find him, if you feel he is there. He is sensitivity he is beyond belief like the Universe and its magic he has become one with it. He is the supreme lover. He is rich beyond all wealth he is love itself he is formless and endless forms. My master is unimagineable. Sometime when I get a glimpse of his force I can stop breathing. And did I mention playful. I love you so much master and I see so little. Please forgive me in advance for my failures I am trying as best as I can.
In deep love
Kutira

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Aug 7, 2006, 12:23
I miss you so much

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Oct 19, 2006, 11:38
only once

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 12, 2007, 6:42
I really wish you would be softer you are killing me and I have had enough

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 11, 2007, 10:32
Thank you

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 12, 2007, 5:50
Not just a picture in body please

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 23, 2007, 5:43
what is your favourite message sammi

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 7, 2007, 1:26
I still miss you

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 30, 2007, 5:21
I miss you like crazy Sammi like crazy

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Aug 6, 2007, 5:35
Have I told you lately Sammi. It never changes. It was the only force powerful enough to make me let go it is some force. I would like to touch you again. Just to feel you I miss you

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 5, 2007, 11:48
I havent sent you any mail for a while so I thought I would make your day. What are you having for dinner tonight maybe sweet potato I am having mixed veges with peanut butter sauce. I wish you were having dinner with me

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 6, 2007, 11:59
Good night Sammi

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 9, 2007, 6:10
Why won't you talk to me I need too

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 9, 2007, 6:10
Why won't you talk to me I need too

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 10, 2007, 12:13
Hey sammi do you really enjoy my objective comments

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 27, 2007, 5:05
Looking at the full moon
My children awe struck
point and ask
What is she
that rides so low in the sky
On a precipice
So vulnerable
so round
so full of womanly grace
so luscious
and I say
she is the moon my beloved
she calls to the sun
she reflects his glory
He is the one
and she is his glorious reflection
so alone up there
waiting
alone
so beautiful
Bathed in his soul
Her glorious love
lighting the night sky
Revealing to all lovers
their sublime love affair


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Oct 22, 2007, 5:29
Did I dream you old man
Did my thoughts conjur you like a magician
But how could that be?
I conjured a magician

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 5, 2007, 3:50
What do you feel when I cry


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 5, 2007, 4:03
Maybe if you knew how much my heart hurts
Maybe if you came with me and saw my boy floating past me
May be if you saw the hounds that rip at my heart
Maybe then you would let me rest in peace.
You with your beloved
You went too far
I couldnt go back
An aging woman
Little more than to be pitied
A fool
What a fool in the world of man
The same mistakes for another life
God give me strength to carry on
Trying so hard
With all my heart and soul
And yet again
Another life
Wasted
The savage hounds yet again
have won the battle



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 19, 2007, 3:10
Happy Birthday Samveda
sending you all my love
Kutira


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 22, 2008, 6:27
Hello old man
Have you heard the bell ring
that there is a new entry
do you feign lack of interest
or do you wait a little to savour the moment
or just go straight to the head of the writer

do you crave for the time
when there is someone
in your room
On this earhly plain

An angel you may be
And with angels you may play
but you want more
you are driven
by your desire to dance
the eternal dance of joy
with the beloved
of your eternal life and soul

Crazed and crazy
You plan and act
working intensely
The many players that you are
The inexhaustible energy
coming straight from the source


old man young man child
old woman young woman child
dog cat snail
what manner are you today
old man of mine








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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 9, 2008, 11:19
Would God ask for a house or a home?
A house could give him shelter
and a place to cook his food
and a bed to sleep
and a bath to wash himself
and a laundry for washing his clothes
That should be enough for God
But wait I hear him calling "no beloved that is not enough"
I want a warm fire when I return at the end of the day
I want my dinner at a table surrounded by loving faces
I want laughter and companionship
I want soft arms around me so that I can feel the warmth of a loving soul
I want my heart filled with love
I want my soul filled with home






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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 9, 2008, 11:47
Good night Samveda
It is night time here
I will wash my hair
And I will go to sleep soon
Do you ever go to sleep
You can answer tomorrow
if you don't have time tonight







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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 9, 2008, 11:47
Good night Samveda
It is night time here
I will wash my hair
And I will go to sleep soon
Do you ever go to sleep
You can answer tomorrow
if you don't have time tonight







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Brijinder"Sagar": RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: brijinder11@yahoo.co.nz
Date: May 16, 2008, 7:39
RAJNEESH CONTRA OSHO

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 17, 2008, 7:05
One day the little cubs woke up from their sleep
And God said
�it is time to play now
Time to celebrate
The winter is over’
And God said
� I will give you sunshine
I will give you fresh water streams
I will give you honey
And fish from the water
I will give you games for play
And meadows of flowers
I will give you music �
And the cubs said
�’Thank you God
We will bathe in your sunshine
Drink from your fresh water streams
Swim in their rock pools
Eat of your honey and fish
run through your meadows of flowers
We will play your heavenly games
And when we hear your music
We will dance
intoxicated
By the beauty of your grace'

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jun 9, 2008, 12:12
They fought for the space
Each one in his own way
Always knowing that they were the special one
All with their pathetic possessions
That gave them a sense of power
This is my family
These are my talents
These are my idols

They fought for the space
Each as selfish as the other
Like masters over their servants
Playing out barren roles of humility
I am a soul of knowledge
I am a soul of sexual power
I am a soul of talent
But ultimately knowing they were only the crowing rooster
Easily throttled for the next meal

They fought for the space
They fought for the right to rule the space
The space
The space once embattled would never be the same again
The space would untimately win
Once they began their battle
The space would throw them out
The space is only for those who feel
For the soul of one another
The space is only for those who love the other
As much as themselves
The space can never be won or lost
Only a temporary victory
As hollow as dry bones



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 12, 2008, 9:24
God had two angels one called heart and one called mind.
Mind was a very clever intelligent angel. He was very charismatic and very handsome. Souls were drawn to mind because he had such a beautiful magnetic power about him. Mind was so talented he could do anything he was awesome.
Heart on the other hand was quieter and seemed eccentric in this world of men. Heart angel was really only appreciated by mankind when there was a catastrophe or something and people needed kindness.
Heart and mind angel sort of worked together for God. Mind angel would draw people towards Gods way. But minds methods were very cruel and so heart angel was needed to comfort human kind so that they could walk through the dark night that mind angel would provide.
Heart and Mind angel needed to work together in balance.
Sometimes mind angel could see how much good he could do for mankind but he forgot that mankind had hearts and that they were only human. Heart angel would come to the rescue but alas mind angel would sometimes push so hard that heart angel could not pick up the pieces.
And then heart angel would bow her head and weep



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 13, 2008, 1:47
Mind and Heart angel use to be one Angel not two
However the world of man was so drawn to mind-angel and misunderstand his beauty and purpose.
Mind-heart Angel said love and they lusted
Mind-heart Angel said toil and they used others to toil for them
Mind-Heart angel became so busy dealing with the deceptions of man-mind
As man didn’t seem to understand that heart and mind worked together
Man separated them
And so finally Mind-Heart Angel had to separate too
His workload was so unbalanced that he had to set up a separate department
The department to deal with men’s minds
He knew the value of heart
But there were so few open hearts
And so sadly he gave up the beauty of his own heart
To help mankind



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 13, 2008, 2:07
And when God says it is time for me to return to the pulsating heart-soul
He will send the beautiful Heart Angel to stroke my body and call me home
And I will surrender with Grace to her beautiful touch
And I will ask her to tell Mind Angel, �Do not despair
That all men have not closed their hearts
When walking in the sea of mankind
The harshness of one to the other
Becomes easy to bear as we close our hearts more and more
It is the encounter with kindness that breaks us
The encounter with honest tenderness
The opening to pure love through the searching of our heart-mind
That brings us undone
And Heart-Angel maybe if you could ask Mind-Angel if it is time for him to join you again
He must be suffering so.



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 27, 2008, 23:37
I would be grateful if you would put an up to date accurate picture on this site as I haven/t seen you for such a long time and the one up now doesn't look like you anyway
love

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Aug 1, 2008, 12:39
What kind of sensitivity is it
nothing that I can understand
Sensitivity with a bludgeon in your right hand
Sensitivity with an iron bar
I would like to tell you what I think about
conscious sensitivity

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Aug 23, 2008, 6:52
And do you say unto them, you who wear the sign of eternity, do you speak to them of your beloved

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Aug 27, 2008, 11:03
The diversity takes my breath away but the bird could come home and still transform to its hearts content

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 4, 2008, 11:21
Riding alone
Across a star filled sky
Surrounded by cold and dark
Moon glow spilling of my clothes
Faster, faster
Midnight flight
Wild, alone, fast, faster, faster
No feeling now
Face frozen cold
Faster, faster
Brittle now
Flesh peeling away
Body Disintegrating
Nothing left now
Silence
Star filled night
Cold and dark
Moon glow, star glow
Nothing more
Silence

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 4, 2008, 11:24
Deep from Silence
I call
My song so beautiful
White beauty emerging
From the sultry silence
Moving so sensuously and elegantly
The silence, the sound , the silhouette
Become oNE
Entrancedyou watch
Unable to move
You swallow
You salivate
And then I am gone



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 4, 2008, 11:35
Limitless energy, limitless forms
Your purpose to corale the object of your desire
The hunter
Who would kill that which he desires
The madman
Becoming one with the creator
Through his passion
The eagle who soars overhead
pinpointing the target with his eye
and then he dives
Dives towards the earth
His prey is stunned
He grabs it in his tallons
This time he has caught a magical serpent
She defies his accurae death blow
She writhes in his tallons
She wraps herself around his strong legs
and then she bites
Her poison spreads through his body as
she bleeds to death
He starts to fall in the sky
He so mighty
With she so earth bound
Holding the dying serpent.
Both so beautiful
both dying now
The power so great
And they would die together
Fall to the earth
Broken
A glow surounds their bodies
Fire lights the entwined forms
A massive golden eagle and
a golden serpent flaming
Emerge
Their flame turns to red
The sky is ablaze
The eagle flies upward
The serpent now winged
Raises her beautiful head and
With her amazing from
moves sensously,and elegantly
her voice sings so beautifully
He is captivated

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 17, 2008, 10:03
What makes a master?
Longing?
What makes a disciple?
Longing?
Long ing for what?
For oneself?
For each other?

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 17, 2008, 10:05
I long to be me
I long for you
May I be whole master?
My dance if for you alone

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 17, 2008, 10:11
My soul is yours
My heart is your heart
My love is your love
My mind is your mind
My body is your body
My spirit is your spirit
Your soul is in my soul
Your heart is safe in my heart
Your love is safe with my love
Your body is my most beloved form
And with my spirit you will soar

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 26, 2008, 1:36
My original face is joy and play
I am put in places of isolation
Not part of anything
On the fringe of everything
Locked out
Do you want me to experience the pain of separation
And go beyond it
To feel the illusion of it
I will play with my mad Sufi lovers
In my physical isolation
I am a mad Sufi lover
I will play with my own love
I will feel my own pain
Then feel my tenderness for myself
Feel my love and care for myself
I will call in the power of love to play with me
I will ask myself to connect with the play and joy of the source that I am
I will call on my brothers and sisters
The lovers that are touching my shoulders
The invisible forces that kiss my cheeks
Whisper in my ears
Tickle my mind with their humour
I will go deeply into this terrible pain
I pray that I will come out the other side
And forever feel connected
Forever feel that I too am the source


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 27, 2008, 0:14
Beautiful companions, a shand,y a warm day a lovely garden, good food. Ahhh.

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 27, 2008, 10:13
I watch you in all your different roles
A silent witness
So touched by you
My heart hurts



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 29, 2008, 1:20
Sammi how long is so long?

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 29, 2008, 2:35
The weather is changing
It has picked up in intensity
There is a front
A build up
Something is brewing

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 29, 2008, 3:04
I used to go to the bush and look
At the trees
at the birds
at the sticks
and the logs
At the animals
I used to go to the bush and look

I went to the bush
And I looked
And then I knew
Something was looking
Like a space ship
With a zoom lens
Focused
The bush was silent and still
I was the only thing moving

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 29, 2008, 3:11
The end is always sad
Saying goodbye to familiar hearts
Familiar faces

The end is always
Standing alone again
A child at the dawn



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Sep 29, 2008, 4:08
I am jumping out of my skin

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Oct 2, 2008, 1:21
Is this shocking story your truth Samveda

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 13, 2008, 11:10
The beginning is always uncertain
Feeling for vibration
A child at the dawn






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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 13, 2008, 11:14
Friend



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 13, 2008, 11:22
Full moon tonight
Back in Sydney
Hair straight
Sunburnt face
Swimming, walking
kundalini
Fried zucchini and rice
Cake for afternoon tea
Exchanged emails with baby
Hang my clothes
Tidy my room
Maybe sit for a while
Clear skies
Tourists chatting
This is Sydney




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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 13, 2008, 12:01
Walking down the lane
Lane A
The boys in the hotel say good morning
They are ready to play
The fruit walla, unlocks his papayas, coconuts figs, bananas and says Kutira
The chai walla has a full stand of men sipping their chai
A dog eats some rice off the ground someone has thrown for him
The little dog with the tumour on her spine looks for a warm spot and sleeps she has little strength and she is so beautiful
the shoe repairer sitting in the dust on a small cloth
smiles and waves
The laundry man teases 'it isnt ready yet come later'
Sureka is asleep in the complex across the road from me, soon she will open her shop full of silks and crepes and cottons and we will sit and chat. Nanda will be in her own shop too surrounded by statues and toys and shoes and colours that say India
The rickshaw drivers call for business and greet each passing face.
German Bakery is in full swing with coffees, teas, eggs fruit juice and mixed fruit porridge. Many people are chatting. So early in the morning and they are chatting
The new hotel on the corner has many guards and they say good morning as I pass by, there are men washing cars parked across from the big new hotel cars that belong to the people who stay at the big new hotel and they laugh as they wash the cars.
Two women sweep the street and blow dust all over
Three blind people hold onto one another and walk down the lane together I dont notice that they are blind and dont get out of their way
They say sorry
At the small shop across from my hotel
a little girl looks up to the counter and buys a sweet
Two buffalo appear
the traffic worries them and they keep moving towards the burning gatts
The place where we will all go
When our bodies are worn out
And we can no longer play in Lane a
The beggars will be here soon
The men in their saffron robes stand with dignity
Holking their brass bowls
And when I cross over North Main Road
When I become part of the traffic flow of North Main Road
And am carried safely to the other side
heir is another adventure of stall holders
With brightly coloured cloths
With robes, shoes, sandals
And the flower walla
I turn into front gate lane and notice the beautiful road
and the beautifully paved street
All the beautiful trees g by the grace
And I watch my footsteps and I go more inside
I become aware of my own movement
Where are my shoulders
Is my step grounded
I notice the beautiful houses and their wonderful gardens
And I approach the gates of the resort
The day has only just begun



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 19, 2008, 3:54
'I can't hold it for long this is the last pair
and you can have two pairs for the price of one' he said
'but I only want one pair'
'then you may have a 25% discount on one pair
but just think if you buy two pairs
I will do you a deal and halve the price of the extras
and your rebate will be extra on two pairs
and you will only pay an extra $30 for 2 pairs' he said
But I thought it was 2 for the price of one
And I only want one pair

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 30, 2008, 6:39
You could at least remember

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 3, 2008, 0:56
Yes

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 5, 2008, 8:49
Keep the number silent
It is not the right time
Stay with your self
There is still much to do
This is not the time

Years pass
Patience is the game
No expectations no desires filled
Stay with the process

Work with the body work with the mind
Stroke them, court them
Be the lover
Feed them
You have nothing to give
Not yet

Slowly slowly almost imperceptibly
The hard shell begins to crack
Tiny tiny cracks becoming bigger and bigger
There is light coming from within the shell
Light meeting light

It is the right time




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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 18, 2008, 18:51
Hi Sammi
I woke up early
so that I could be
the first
to wish you
happy birthday
love
have a wonderful day

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 18, 2008, 18:53
I looked for you and I saw
Fields of flowers and sunshine
I saw forests
With rivers flowing through them

I looked for you
And saw you laughing
Heard your laughter
I saw the spirit of joy

I looked within
And I found that same spirit
Dancing in celebration

Wild spirits
Free now
Happy Birthday Sammi
And then some more



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 18, 2008, 18:54
Happy birthday Sammi
loving you always
love

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 24, 2008, 6:01
If I loved you less
I could have settled for less
If I had loved you less
I could be like everyone else
If I loved you less
I could be sitting in a family group tonight
Not knowing any better
Just happy to be getting stoned
Surrounded by grandchildren
Content in my dotage

But you surrounded me
You hijacked me
You stole my spirit away

Tonight I could be spending christmas
Surrounded by children
Adoring me
But you stole my soul


remembering the children I had
Remembering that once I belonged
Like everyone else






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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 25, 2008, 23:37
It feels to me like it is getting cooler now
Something feels different



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 6, 2009, 9:33
Very tired tonight
Is it nearly over

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 8, 2009, 6:06
Letting Go
As fast
As much
As thoughtfully
As tentatively
As intelligently
As intuitively
As lovingly

Shaking me free
Never quite sure
When to make a move
And When to let it go

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 11, 2009, 10:53
Thank you Sammi
Thank you Sammi
Thank you Sammi
Once I asked you
'will I love you
as much
when all of it is over'
because the love was so beautiful
and I wanted to feel like that forever
and you said 'you will be grateful'

Everyday deeper and deeper
I fall into you
My life is your life
I love you Samveda
I thank you
and as much as my gratitude
I am full of you
I love you
Thank you beloved Master







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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 13, 2009, 6:26
so tired sammi

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 22, 2009, 8:06
I was shocked to read an article on a website called virtually Osho (or something like that) It said that the trade mark of Osho would be removed some time early this year at least in USA and the resort had until April to make their submissions to have the decision reversed.
They went on to say that it was a good thing to have the trademark removed because Osho was just a technique of meditations and this would make Osho available to more. Whatever they meant I do not know.
Wikipedia had more understanding of Osho.



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 12, 2009, 4:42
Look into the face of it.
Sit with it
Feel it
Let every bone of your body feel it
Take it into your solar plexus
Let the fire run through you
Let it pulse in your sex centre
Feel it in your thighs
Breathe with it
Let the heat of it
Expand throughout your stomach
Feel the weakness that comes into your legs
And now feel your heart
Cool untouched by it
The lower chakras are on fire with the heat
Your heart is still
There is no movement
The belly is pounding
But the heart is still
The animal centre is on fire
But the soul is undisturbed
Watch the stomach
And the see how long it takes for the heat to subside
Sit in your heart now and let the body relax



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 13, 2009, 5:35
The odds of being right are one in a million. What seems right is an illusion. It is the total mystery of illusion. What makes something so obviously odd become a point of ones life. So important as there is no logic to any of it. Wait and see, how is it all panning out. The oddness of normally unacceptable behaviour to me. If it is correct then why not. If it is the way then I will do it. Sitting silently doing nothing enjoying the afternoon writing this nonsense is a treat for my soul. Giving up the need to work conscientously to complete the task
A summers afternoon cold but it is summer and it is Friday. I am ready to relax for the weekend give way to my normal love of order. Forget it all. Let it go. There is no need for completion of anything. I wil do what I feel like doing now. I will leave this place soon. I am a human and I would rather write these stories about nothing than anything else at this moment.


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 13, 2009, 6:38
Valentino

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 13, 2009, 9:33
i wanni go down on you agian

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 15, 2009, 0:29
Yet again I am in another situation that I dont know how o deal with.

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 23, 2009, 11:54
love you sammi

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 19, 2009, 10:15
Show a child criticism
Exclude them
Ridicule them
Expect the impossible from them
and then sit back and enjoy their confusion
Enjoy watching tireless spirit
knowing that whichever way they turn
you will destroy them
send them mad
destroy their sense of self
Impossible demands
no information
constant criticism
secrets-deep dark secrets
that would frighten the bravest hearts
and then add a little spice to the mix
the charm and deception of a psychopath
of a sadist
it would succeed
but for one thing
we are small parts of a whole
we are not alone
in this great existence
the all seeing all knowing
beyond understanding beyond reason
the great intellingence and love
this is a testing time for me
but I thank you for the knowledge that
you have given to me
The love you have held me with
and the blessings that you have bestowed upon me







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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 20, 2009, 9:33
and then she couldnt stop
the degradation of something so beautiful
was intoxicating to her
she could do what she liked
every one believed her
every agreed'
this was a bad child
a bad seed
her enjoyment was orgasmic
this was better than sex
so much power
those fools
ready to believe anything
that stupid child
trusting everything
too easy'
a lie
here
half a truth
it was too simple
the child is worthless
the child is something to be used
come one came all use this child
it is nothing
too easy
there are plenty. catholics protestants good men and women
they will come and abuse thiis child
and justify their lust
it was just a slut
it was nothing'
jjust a slut something to be used abused
paint a picture and
the mob will accept it
we are good we are righteous
that is lowly scum'
we can use it
it doesnt deserve better
come one come all
take your pleasure
and feel nothing
it is just a slut
think no more
feel no more
better not to feel
only for
who knows
she wont feel anything
she is there for us to use
and when they use and abuse her
God sends his angles to massage her mind and her body
broken and terrified
the nothing has to get up iin the morning
go to school or we willl call the doctior
oh no another one to abuse her horrified body and mind
and all the time the one the one who controls it all
thrills at the lust for more
the degradation
the power
oh the power
men abuse her child
and she feeds
blood dripping from her mouth as she gorges on the feast
this is power
lust
feed me
as this child is saying mummy help me
raped from the cradle
not for lust
for sadist pleasure
respectability thats what we want
not like the slut we have
give her to anyone
they are all willing participants
catholics protestants respectable men and women
God help me


l
j



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 20, 2009, 21:25
the two hideous ghouls
feed on the carcas
cackling
and grinning
faces covered in blood and grease
eyes shining
not for food do these two eat
day by day they have sucked the blood
slowly
enjoying
until their victim falls
weakened by the blood they have slowly drawn
helpless
her strength gone now
she falls to the ground

they move in on her body
she witnesses them
biting at her flesh
still alive and conscious
she feels them tearing
no where to run now
just watch herself dying
and the ugly ghouls cackle



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 22, 2009, 1:22
but they didnt want her dead
that would be too easy
they left her half alive
wounded
and half her light gone
flesh torn and mind worse
her body healed
enough for dependence
Her mind was numbed
frozen by horror and terror
what did the predator want
it was perfect
a damaged soul
not knowing who she was
or what had happened
memories lost and hidden to herself
hidden in the recesses of body and mind
too afraid to face them and see them
body half broken and frozen
catatonic as her mind
together holding the secrets



a perfect scapegoat
lies so complicated
deceptions
charm
movtivation
to hurt
is that it
is that the only motivation










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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 22, 2009, 1:49
But through all of this
something had blossomed
by breaking her body and mind
she had moved from the outward world
into the inward world
of perception and intuition
of animals and trees
she turned to nature
she learnt to trust her senses
grew awareness
put her light on the inside
her light hadnt failed
it had gone inside
to find the answers
she searched and searched
people and experiences came into her life
to help her unravel the story
no information
no clues
but there were those who knew anyway
sent by God to help her if she was willing
to let go of the fear and
move into it and through it for the last time
trusting her our own instincts
guided by higher forces
more evolved beings than herself
showing her what she couldnt be told
As neither judge accused or victim
as a Universe in herself
with other Universes encouraging her to be
All following their own directions
for their own soul evolution
Not for the faint hearted
only through deep love and deep trust
is this surrender of
and moving with this fear possible

I am responsible for everything you do
and you are responsible for everything I do





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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Mar 24, 2009, 14:29
Hello darling
how are you
I hope you havent been working too hard
maybe you can relax a bit now
go for a holiday or something
let go of some of your responsibility
you really do push yourself to the limit
take it easy darling
till next time



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 20, 2009, 12:34
Hello what are you doing I have just had my dinner I was very hungry because autumn is getting colder and today it was raining. For dinner I had sweet and sour tofu and it was really nice I juiced a big sweet pineapple and it made such a nice sauce much better than using tinned pineapple. I had a busy and tedious cay. Now it is my time and you can be part of it. Time for some yoga and stuff now. Talk to you tomorrow

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 23, 2009, 1:29
Good morning shocking man, good morning divine son, good morning daughter of depth and expansion welcome to my day

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 30, 2009, 8:46
Hello Just letting you know I really love kindness in my life i like to be stroked i love real kindness

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Apr 30, 2009, 11:19
It was so good to see you on Nanda's site. I have missed you for so long. You want me to say it OK i love you sammi

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: May 1, 2009, 11:30
You know whats funny when you get on someones facebook you never bother to contact them again they are so available and ordinary you just dont bother. There is no big deal to facebook you just make your contact and then forget. Is that your issue.

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 12, 2009, 8:51
I will respond. Somehow it doesnt feel right for me to do this. There is a feeling of inevitablilty in it I guess. Sam the Sham, sam the samyasin. You're far too clever. My heart hurts from all your cleverness. I would like to be nasty now

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jul 19, 2009, 4:06
This morning I sat in quiet meditation because my heart was filled with fear. Fear that radiated through my body and fear far greater than the reality that it was dealing with. And I wondered what was the origin of this fear.
I sat quietly and the thoughts came. And then I knew that there was a lover surrounding me that I was feeling more and more a love that was waiting for the fear to be dealt with and to move into my heart. I was aware of a loving entity that has been fusing into every cell of my body. I need to be totally available. I need to have dealt with my fear and insecurities and leave them behind. I need to be baggage free.
And here is the point of this entry. I need an honest encounter with you, face -to -face one that will give me completion on our intensely difficult association. One that will also give you completion, as there must be a psychic drain on you from my energy still being associated with yours. To allow both of us to be free from one another and available to what is to come for both of us as separate entities.
From the most feminine depths of my soul in her most patient and fragile space I implore you and from the strength of my developing male I stand naked in my quest for my self.
I am totally vulnerable to your power but my soul and spirit combine, my male and female go down on bended knees to you to allow my intuitive self access to the Samveda prescence to acknowledge what I can see as truth in the past the present and the future.
I beg you Samveda not like a beggar but like a queen who wishes to be finally released from the bondage of her karma. Who has fought every battle from the depths of her heart.
I beg you from that space of dignity and grace Samveda to hear me now and to allow such a meeting where only truth and honesty will be invited.
To give me freedom so that I may stand at the new dawn, to give yourself total freedom so that the love that is waiting for each of us may be total.



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Nov 27, 2009, 20:23
It gives me great pleasure to know
that you and your beloved
have finally married

Knowing you as I do
Knowing your beloved as I do

Knowing that you seduce women in sessions
And that she too somewhere in her psyche
must know this too

Knowing that as the abuser
You also need to be abused
And there it is the perfect union
Abused, abuser, abused, abuser

It makes it all ok,
the sexual interference in sessions
When a patient is at their most vulnerable
No clothes
on the table
and in trust
Feels your fingers inside them
Has you on top of them on the table

Oh great one, looking for truth
You have found it

I abhor what you do to women in sessions
But we will get through it
All of us
And one thing that makes it easier to bear
Is knowing that you are married to
A humourless, buck toothed buffoon
For a lifetime and hopefully eternity

Knowing that whatever you blessed us with
You will receive 1,000 fold over

It is a strange way to be freed
Not with a word
But with your sentence

May your bondage last forever
May your life be full of your beloved
It is a fitting outcome
Existence has the last laugh
on you
old man

I have many blessings i could bestow upon you
but i will save them for another day
Unless you take this webpage down
Your shame should force you or the Resort
to remove your page from this site
you should be on sexual assault charges
and you should be removed from any dealings with women
I cant speak for men because i dont know what you do to them in sessions
So once again old man
Congratulations on your bondage
if you ever had any balls
they are definitely decorating your old ladies neck now




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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 12, 2009, 5:32
This man has told me that he no longer has one on one sessions. No that his word is anything to trust. I can only hope that it is the truth and warn any one who might be considering having sessions with him to be very careful.

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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 12, 2009, 7:55
you have all your websites as sam borrett master whatever you are supposed but i know you, the emotional cripple incapable of any real intimacy, only able to predate. i know existence will punish you for your behaviour. old man as successful as you are in this life you have gained nothing may god have no mercy on your soul

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    : RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
    Date: Dec 12, 2009, 20:57
    finally i am putting it all together
    you have granted me a few moments of your precious time
    at the least you did say you were sorry
    although like all abusers you couldnt remember doing anything wrong
    i have worked tirelessly for the release of abusers
    and i guess that was my role with you
    to work tirelessly on a psychic level
    for your release
    you are not there yet
    but i really need to be free now
    i believe that exposing you
    is necessary
    it is necessary for you to face your own issues of inadequacy
    especially as i hear you are working with single mothers and their sons
    this is a very dangerous place for them to be
    i heard you saying that if these women worked through their issues they would heal their children
    well i believed that too
    while i was working through my issues with total trust
    my own son died
    there was no compassion from this man
    he is merely a set of techniques
    using the name Osho to validate his abusive state
    Yes he is very charming
    yes he charms everyone
    yes women fall in love with him
    old though he may be
    but he is the ultimate abuser/seducer
    he doesnt care about anyone
    except hiding his own deep wounds
    of a mother who didnt love him
    and a father who he could never be

    This is a very intelligent man
    who has learnt the cunning of a solicitor
    and hides behind a loveless relationship
    to predate on women

    You will be charmed
    but remember
    there is nothing behind his charm
    the love you are feeling around him
    is your own love
    this man is a psychic predator
    BE WARNED



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 12, 2009, 22:57
Sam Borrett or Samveda or whatever he is calling himself now
violates women in sessions
then says
i dont want to hurt you
very interesting from a therapists point of view i am sure
it takes years to recover from violation by a professional
and then to include emotional abuse into the picture
he says i am very fond of you
whatever that means
this is not about sex with this man
it is about power and control
this is about a man with major ego issues
generating waves of abusive misconduct
into the world
i pray that he is removed from any dealings
with people
and is corralled into a world with his wife
at least the rest of us will then be safe
good riddance to a bad soul



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 13, 2009, 1:55
when a child's body is violated
the child puts the experience away somewhere
it is too much for a child to deal with
and so the child puts it somewhere
deep in its memory
until the day that it is strong enough
probably as an adult to deal with it

The child says "i know that they really love me" and the violation doesn't fit in with that
and so the child goes on giving love and not understanding the subtle behaviour going on
in the game It is too painful to release the memory- the experience
because then the child will have to face the fact
that the parent did not care about the child
that their own self interest
was the most important thing
and the child was an object
and then one day the child has to face this
and deal with all of the anger that goes with it
and begin not only healing itself but all of the perpetrators

When an adult is violated by a professional
a very similar behaviour is set up
the adult thinks they must care about me
they wouldnt do this if it would hurt me
and they go on believing that the perpetrator
must have really cared about them
and then one day when the adult is strong enough
they have to face the fact that the perpetrator
didnt care about them at all
that no one would do that to another person
if they cared about them
and then they have to release all of the associated anger




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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 13, 2009, 12:47
and if that wasnt enough
when i asked him to say sorry for what he had done
he said he didnt remember
but that he would have done my daughter not me




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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Dec 22, 2009, 4:40
Its funny how samveda talks about
the love of his life
who he has been with for 11 years
He was abusing me is sessions
while he was in the relationship
with the love of his life
i feel sick on the stomach



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 9, 2010, 5:33
Lecherous old man
May you find your heart one day
And may it break into one million pieces

Lecherous old man
Heart of stone
May you watch
As the scavengers
You have hunted with
tear you apart
May your eyes be fixed in terror
As they rip you limb from limb
Tear your flesh
And then leave the rest
To your companions
the ugly vultures

Lecherous old man
My only regret
Is meeting you
Lecherous old man
If only my son
Was still here
and



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 9, 2010, 5:57
And as I watch on
I will give a discourse
That will go something like this

“As you live so shall you die
Every nasty word
That has ever come
From your mouth
Every lie
Will turn against you
And send barbs of pain through your mind
And body
Every cowardly act you have committed
Will turn back on you
And stab you
Your own words and actions
Will torture you
Your punishment
made by you
Will follow you like a shadow
And when you turn to face it
You will scream with horror
At its evil



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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Jan 25, 2010, 9:57
Hahahahahahahahahha
you stupid old man
55 my rs
you stupid old man
you look closer to 70
you vain stupid, old man
whats that poem
'and of my three score year and ten'
65 will not come again
you pathetic old fossil
and how old is your beloved mrs
25?
yuck i find you disgusting

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kutira: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Email: arrow405@yahoo.com.au
Date: Jan 26, 2010, 3:48
I'm sorry
i dont want to say nasty things anymore
I wanted to hurt you
Because you hurt me
but now i will tell you the truth
i love you i will alway love you
I think you look really nice
You do hurt me
i do miss you so much
i dont understand anything
and i do miss my boy
I saw your soul
the rest I dont understand
The only thing i know
is that i try as hard as i can
to let you go
but i can't











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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 5, 2010, 21:31
And i breathe you into my heart
And i breathe out love to you
And i feel you

When i breathe in
You fill my heart
I take you in
You are me

And when i breathe out
I feel you taking the breath
I feel you drowning

My breasts tingle with the breath
And then i breathe out
And my body relaxes
And i live to breathe in again

On my last in breath
I will breathe you in
And on my last out breath


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: RE:Shocking Story by and about Sw Chetan Samveda
Date: Feb 23, 2010, 8:42
And on my last breath out
i will say
thank you god
i am finally free
from this lunatic

thank you god
for freedom
to be myself

a place within myself
where no one can reach

aligned with existence
home
at last
with my own joy

home
at last
with my own intrinsic nature

By the grace of God
I pray that while in this body
I will become my own self


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